Here’s what happened…
My boss yelled (and I mean YELLED, and swore) at me for failing to do things…That she never trained me to do. She seems to think she gave me a full 6 days of training, but in reality I only received 4. I tried to explain this to her. SHE DOESN’T FUCKING BELIEVE ME.
She chewed me out for an hour, telling me I’m “lazy” because I haven’t been doing these things after she told me “three times”…EXCUSE ME? She didn’t even tell me ONCE to do them. I had NO idea that I had to perform these tasks. I had no idea, because she never fucking told me or showed me how to do them. But she seems to think she did, and nothing will convince her otherwise.
So my boss is completely batshit insane and I’m getting fired for it. That’s what happened. This will have been the FOURTH job I’ve lost THIS YEAR because every manager I’ve had so far is an incompetent/obsessive/insane twat. I got hired at this job because three people suddenly quit all at once…I should’ve taken that as a sign.
I can’t take any more of this.
EDIT: She also can’t seem to remember my name. I’m 99% sure she’s constantly mistaking me for another worker who looks similar to me, which makes things even worse. Fuck everything.
Yep, getting fired in January. For things that aren’t my fault.
You know when you desperately want to kill yourself but there’s too many people you’d hurt and that’s the last thing you want?
Should’ve offed myself in June like I planned. The depression is so crippling I can barely move, much less go out and buy a fucking gun and use it.
My boss just called and wants me to come in tomorrow to talk to me. She won’t tell me what it’s about, she says she’s “too busy” to tell me if I’m in trouble or not. So I’m left sitting at home, freaking the FUCK out until tomorrow.
I don’t know what I did wrong. I didn’t do it on purpose, I always try to do everything right. I don’t steal. But I have a feeling I’m getting fired. I know it. I fucking know it, because that’s how life likes to treat me.
Just when I think I’m going to be comfortable and stable, the rug is pulled out from under me AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND FUCKING AGAIN. I’m terrified that it WILL NOT STOP until I kill myself. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t deal with instability and constant fear all the time.
I can’t handle this anymore. Suicide isn’t an option because I have a boyfriend who I love a hell of a lot more than myself. If it weren’t for him I wouldn’t care. I wouldn’t fucking care. I’m at that point in my life, after all the constant moving, getting fired/laid off/circumstances that force me to change jobs all the time, being sick ALL THE FUCKING TIME, my apartment burning down, always being broke, the thousands of dollars in bills that I owe and the CONSTANT. SHITSTORM. THAT KEEPS COMING. AND COMING. AND HITTING ME. OVER. AND. OVER.
You know that tonsillitis I had like 2 months ago?
I still have it. But now I’ve graduated to coughing up blood and my lymph node is the size of a golf ball. Staying awake is the hardest thing in the fucking world. YEEEEAAAH.
I’m starting to think I have HIV/AIDS or something. Considering what happened in my life 3 years ago, there’s a small possibility. It takes a few years for symptoms of HIV to start showing, and now would be about that time.
I’m freaking the hell out and I could never afford to get tested, it’s like $400.
I’m so exhausted and done with this shit.
$10 Sketch Commissions
Holy fuck I need money.
Allow me to peddle my wares…
Who wants a $10 sketch? I’ll draw anything except robots and vehicles because I suck ass at drawing those. I’d love to draw your original characters or fanart of something. Humans/humanoids are my specialty but I’m okay at drawing animals too. My sketches are really clean-looking.
Email me at email@example.com if you’re interested. I accept payment through Paypal. You don’t have to pay until your commission is finished. Thank you~
moroulia said: You think your health is more important than reducing your carbon emission use from fossil fuels?? Bitch gtfo. In all seriousness though do you have any of those places that sell those huge like 6 gallon jugs you can refill for $0.50/gal?
We do have a few of those places, but using them isn’t easy for people who can’t carry a lot of weight and don’t have a vehicle.
"ugh I can’t believe people BUY water! That’s so STUPID! Why can’t they just be SMART and drink from the tap? Buying water bottles is so wasteful and unnecessary!"
Well congratulations on living in an area where the water doesn’t contain shit like lead and chlorine and doesn’t give you rashes, headaches, and diarrhea. Fuckhead.
This problem isn’t exclusive to third-world shitholes—I’m talking about American city water. Depending on your city, the water can be awesome or completely undrinkable. I used to live in Tacoma, a major city in Washington. The water was yellow and smelled terrible. This city is home to hundreds of thousands of people who buy bottled water because DRINKING FROM THE TAP IS UNSAFE.
Douchey “environmentalists” who shit on bottled water need to just fucking stop.
I swear I had a dream like this last night.
Aisha’s debutalbum ”The Other Six”
you gonna bounce like my checks did back in the day
Hey, if you'll have the time, will you be able to give basic art tutorials, such as "How-to-draw-heads-which-aren't-circles-with-faces"?
I appreciate that you think I’m skilled enough to teach! But I really don’t know enough to do so. I’m still an amateur myself…
I recognize that you do have an acne problem, and I wish you the best of luck with it, but I just want to tell you that I always thought you were very pretty.
Thank you. That does boost my confidence. I just wish I didn’t focus on the negative comments I get so much. It’s something I’m working on.
Yesterday a mentally handicapped man told me that he had a friend with “really horrible acne, almost as bad as [mine]” but he put vitamin A on his face and it cleared it up.
I have never felt so many conflicting emotions in my life. Like I was fucking pissed because WOW RUDE, but he was retarded so he didn’t know any better and he was just trying to help. Then I just felt like shit about myself again. After I had just started getting enough confidence to stop wearing makeup.
Fuck people, fuck retarded people, fuck me. I’m still never going to wear makeup because I feel like I have to—I’m over that point in my life. But there will always be that lingering “oh god I’m so fucking ugly” in the back of my mind. Now it’s worse. And that’s no one’s fault but my own.
tl;dr: Your triggers and self-confidence issues are your problem, not someone else’s. It’s your responsibility to deal with them, not the world’s responsibility to walk on eggshells around you.